Why it have to be this way?

Monday, June 29, 2009 |12:00 AM

Cant believe tat ltr sch re-open!
wow, wad a fast, sad & borin holidaes! =/

for th past 3 wks, i onli went out twice
& tis wk i went out th whole dae! haiishsxc

Saturday, June 27, 2009 |12:47 AM

Feelin so empty without u ard =/
starrin at my phone & there's no msgs
why must things happen to be tis way?
all i can is blame myself! haiishsxc

how i wish tat i can go bck tym
to change everythin! but sad i cant!
hate tis kind of thin! i admit tat i'm weak!
so wad! tats me! i cant let go! cant bear too~

been dreamin bout u since tat dae!
i donoe wad to do! u change alot! haiishsxc!
jus thinkin tat i'm useless!
even though now we are still clumsy boi & gal
but th feelin is different! haiishsxc!

even so, u still treat it differently!
i donoe i hav saw my post anot but ...............
let me suffer more den!
lastly SRY FOR WAD I'VE DONE!
=/

Friday, June 26, 2009 |12:44 AM

Tis post is for someone~
& its none other den to my Clumsy Gal..
hope u read tis & tell me !!

when th dae we strted to msg each other, we keep msg through out th dae.
frm good mornin text till good nite text & tat tym i strted to hav feelins for u but
i dare not say it out cos i'm scare tat u rejected me ><

As tym goes by, u too hav th same feelins for me..but u're scare of misunderstandin
haiis, as tat dae i admit tat i hav fallen for u & u strted worrin bout tis person =/
on tat nite, since we noe tat we hav feelins for each other but not rdy to be tgt
cos scare may hav misunderstandin, we strt to be Clumsy Boi & Gal on 060509.

As tym goes by, our feelins gettin deeper by each dae & u keep tellin me its
impossible! i feelin down & u keep askin me will ther be a dae we two fallen
for each other & attach to one another? i told u tat i love u & u make me promise u tat
when th dae comes i'll not leave u!

When th first tym i sended u home, after our papers meet u at th bus stop & waited for u bout 1hr plus? cos u told me tat u helpin xiaowei wif somethin. den its okay.
after tat when saw me & ask me
her: do u love me?
me: ya
her: wad bout someone
me: err..i donoe

after u walk away & i was lyk =/ hai..
while th bus came, u msg me. i readed it i reali feel down =(
i keep thinkin when tat dae comes, i reali donoe wad i'll do! ='(
den i told u tat i love u whole heartedly! haiis
i'm glad tat u lie on my shoulder cos i noe u reali nid it..
i was bout to give u a hug den u nid to alight & i lyk 'wa sianx, i thought u alight near
tpy inter-change' =/ but nvm

i asked u, hu stand higher % between me & him. & u said me. i wna asked u for stead earlier
but u keep sayin bout her & scare of misunderstandin =/
& u said 'i'm scare of acceptin cos i'm scare of losin' On th 090509, i tried asked u for
stead but u're scare & u told me tat u nid tym. den i gave u tym to think & tell me when u're rdy

th nxt dae, as per normal we msg each other & u told me tat alot of ppl ask u to accept me
den i was lyk shocked =x so i asked u 'are u rdy?', den u still donoe..haiis den at nite, asked u again den u told me tat u'll give me th ans differently. i was lyk scare, nervous? u told me after ur bathin. den u text me,
her: u wan to noe th ans?
me: errr ya? (feelin nervous)
her: u wan th true or fake ans?
me: of cos true lah
her: SNA, SEY I OD

i was lyk huh? keep think think think, den u asked me to read frm th bck
den i was feelin happy & 110509, 0047mins when we're attach lol..chatted on th phone wif her
till 2 or 3 plus i think..send a sweet good nite text to each other & promises
as dae goes by, we love each other deeper by each dae & nite!

tats our sweetest thin tat hav happen between us..asked u to help me post me blog
cos feelin lazy? =x after tat thought of cre8tin a cpl blog. so think bout it & nxt dae cre8
everydae keep postin on th blog <33>

when u wan told me somethin but u donoe how to say & scare tat somethin happen
den i keep ask u to say out & u told me..i damn sad, scare & jealous & u tried to cheer me up
at least u told me th truth & nv lie to me..u oso tried to cheer me up when i fail my subjects..haiis

skip to th dae when mdm yip noe bout us, i felt reali worried scared tat we were force
to break up ='( & when ur ptc i reali reali worried ! waited for 4plus for ur msg (i was at lan at tat moment) recieved ur text & said i've made my deicsions! i was lyk @#$%^@!! no mood to play anymore! i'm sry tat i keep scoldin u =/ haiis at nite u told me wad reali happen..when last bottom text i drop my tears, i said tat i respect ur decision & i'll wait for u after our N lvls..

reali a sad dae for th both of us! haiishxc! (now in my head still can rmb clearly!) i reali donoe wad to do...few daes ltr we still treat each other lyk tgt but keep it damn low..u post at our blog tis
Happie Memorise last for 18 days,
BUT sadness last for 4 months! =(

Hubby, <33
now mye heart is broken into pieces,j
ust like a set of puzzel,
onli EUU can & KNOW how to fix it back!
TRUST MIIE!
i reali sad & i reali nid u in my life! & i cant afford to lose u!
haiis

as for our 1month, itis a sad & happy anniversary~
even we are not tgt
but our love for each other is still strong!
one dae we shall be tgt again!

baby honey,
-i promise tat i'll wait for u.
always be by ur side..
noone can ever replace u in my heart!

baby, u are th one & onli gal i loved!
to me u are my everythin!
haiis................

when th dae we when out jus th 2 of us, i wanted to go vivo but no slot
wanted to go causeway point but ............
den decided to go ceni watch Drag me to Hell
while Q-ing for our tickets
i was shocked when u told me tats ur bro ! haiis

& i hav th feelin tat somethin gonna happen nxt
in th end after th movie reali somethin happen ! haiis
wanted to ask u walk ard orchach but u said u wan go home..haiis

i reali donoe wad to do ! i'm useless! haiishxc! tried to stop u to make tat decisions!
but i failed! haiis i reali donoe wad to do! we quarrelled till when u ask me to call u..chatted oso quarrel haiis! u keep askin me to give up on u =/ i tryin to change it but haiis

let me tell u, at th end of th dae, u nid to choose hu wna be in ur life. not ur family or ur dad
u wan to find ur happiness is not wif them, is in u to choose wads rite & wrong! haiis

Now u change alot! why must u do tis? cant hav any confidents in urself? u told tat u wan be independent! haiis..i'm sry for wad i did to u! its not tat i hate u or somethin! jus tat i care & i love u & i cant afford to lose u! & now u lyk tis, there's nth i can do! haiis been dreamin bout u for th past few daes! i wan u to be my last love & romance! but haiis do u noe how i feel rite now?! do u?! haiishsxc

i donoe wad u think bout us now..btw i'm still waitin to tell me wad u wan from me!
plz lahh tell me wad u wan!

Friday, June 12, 2009 |9:26 PM

Todae had tuition den
went out meet sheng ming, zhen xun, any & huey fen at pasir ris.
meet them at white sand & headed to pasir ris park..

cycled for 2hrs den rest in between
took photo hahax =x
quite fun & all

missin someone th whole dae!!

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Was tagged by Carrie

♥ THE 100 QUESTIONNS

-I deleted some questions (=

01. Real name - Muhd Nur Ariffin.

02. Nickname(s)- Emokid by frens.

03. Star sign - Taurus .

04. Male or female - Male.

05. Elementary - Nursery K1 and K2 .

06. Middle School - Ang Mo kio secondary.

07. High School - None.

08. Hair color - Black .

09. Long or short hair - short Hair

010. Loud or Quiet - depends .

011. Sweats or Jeans - Donoe!

012. Phone or Camera - Phone.

013. Fruits or fried foods - Fruits.

014. Drink or Smoke? - None.

015. Do you have a crush on someone?- Nope.

016. Eat or Drink - Both.

017. Piercings - None.

018. Tattoos - Nope.

019. Been in an airplane - Once.

020. Been in a relationship - Yes

.021. Been in a car accident - NO .

022. Been in a first fight - Yes, with my old frens.

----FIRST----

023. First piercing - No.

024. First best friend - Siah Zheng Jie .

025. First award - Not sure.

026. First crush - Primary 6.

027. First fashion sense - wad?

028. First vacation - Malaysia .

----LAST----

029. Last person you talked to - Someone.

030. Last person you texted - Someone.

031. Last person(s) you watched a movie with - Someone, xiaowei & jushua, hsinmin, chole, lionel, jestor, phyllis, xiaosi, sukhairy, kenny, his fren, fariz & yongtze.

032. Last food you ate - egg wif bread .

033. Last movie you watched - Night at th museum 2 .

034. Last song you listened to - No surprise.

035. Last thing you bought - donoe.

036. Last person you hugged- someone.

----FAVES----

037. Food - Lots to mention.

038. Drinks - lots to mention

039. Clothing - donoe.

040. Books - None.

041. Musics - Lots to mention

042. Flower - donoe.

043. Colours - Black , white and purple.

044. Movies - Not sure.

045. Positions - means?

----CURRENTLY----

067. Eating - Nope.

068. Drinking - yes.

069. I'm about to - Maple.

070. Listening to - nth

071. Plans for today - chat wif someone.

072. Waiting for - finish this quiz!

073. Want kids? - maybe?

074. Want to get married? - Yup

075. Careers in mind - engineer.

o76. Lips or eyes - huh?.

077. Shorter or taller? - Huh?

078. Romantic or spontaneous - Romantic.

079. Nice stomach or nice arms - Huhs?

080. Sensitive or loud - Sensitive.

081. Hook-up or relationship - wad?

082. Trouble-maker or hesitant - Nope.

083. Lost glasses/contacts → nope.

084. Ran away from home → Nope.

085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → nope.

086. Killed somebody → wont happen at all.

087. Broken someone's heart → don wna say!

088. Been arrested → Nope.

089. Cried when someone died → donoe

----DO YOU BELIEVE IN----

090. Yourself - Yes.

091. Miracles - Yes.

092. Love at first sight - Yes.

093. Heaven - Yes.

094. Santa Claus - Nope.

095. Sex on the first date - Nope.

096. Kiss on the first date - yes.

----ANSWER TRUTHFULLY----

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Yes !

098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? - not sure.

099. Do you believe in God - Yes.

100. This is the 100th and last.

Tag 10 ppl to do this quiz:

-ANYONE!!!